I am watching the screen when I hear a sound on my left. I settle in and sellect some porn to watch. The door to the adjoining booth is open so it is empty. Of course, the booths without gloryholes look to be busy. I’ll just watch a little porn and be on my way.” “I’ll stay out of the booths with the gloryholes. While I am looking around, I figure, since there aren’t many people here, it probably would be okay to check out the peeps. I don’t plan on going into the booth area. I’m just going to look to see if there are any new and interesting products. I park and walk into the adult bookstore. I think, “I could stop in to see if they have anything new in. I go by and the parking lot is not very full. Then, I find myself just driving by to see if they are busy. I would have to turn off the main road to even see the parking lot. I can handle driving past the place.” It isn’t like it is on the main road. Then, eventually, I think, “That’s silly. When I try to force myself not to think about it, I think about it more. I will just stay away and then I won’t be tempted. I tell myself I won’t even go there again.
When it happens, I tell myself I won’t let it happen again. I don’t know why I think it will be different every time.
